Just thinking

I was just thinking about my exes... again. I have way too much free time.

I thoaght about my first girl friend. We talked on the phone a lot and kissed 5 or six times a day. Then there was the older woman. She was 21 and I was 15. She was beautiful.

Right after her was the girl I call my fist love. after that I was off to the races. At least I'm honest about it.

I really should be using this space to write about my MS. It all is tied together for me. Sometimes it is hard for me to seperate the diffrent aspects of my life. I'm 35 and I haven't had a girl friend in yeaars.

I have been tired a lot latly. I just started PT. I am trying to concentrate on the stretches.

I am weak

How weak am I?

I'm Shirley Temple weak.

I had Physical Therapy today and I can't even do the stretches. I hope I get better with time. The therapist will be back on friday. I just wanted to post something. My internet has been out.

I am going to post my music but circumstances bryond my control are delaying my plans. I hope I'll be ready in a month.

Dreams

I have all of my dreams when I am awake. I guess I am a dreamer. It's a good thing I do. I don't really sleep all that well.

My daughter Jasmine showed me some of the songs she wrote so I showed her an old cassette tape of myself. I think she is inspired now. I am too.

I am going to get my home studio together again. I can't really play like I used too so I will have to change my process a little. I think I will try ambient computer music with riffs and vocals of a few friends sprinkled in. I will post a song here I just need time.