DR's Appointment Today

I will be in my Neurologist's office today. I have a few things I need to discuss with her. I will have to bring up how my feet got really swollen and my worsening balance. A prescription I need for a scooter. I will try to remember to say something about feprodine a new drug that seems to aide walking for people with MS. (I have no idea how to spell feprodine.)

I don't really want to talk about my feet but I guess I have too. I have to bring up how I drank a fith of gin during the two or three days when my feet were swollen.

I bought into gin and juice when Snoop Doggy Dog fist got popular. (I like mine with cranberry juice... my favorite!) My balance probably has a lot to do with that. By the way if that sounds bad you should have seen me in '93. I don't drink now but I guess I still have my moments.

I should be getting a scooter. That will be a big help. I didn't do well when I was in the mall. I was in my wheel chair but it was hot and the heat got to me. MS and the summer time don't go together.

I'm going to mention feprodine. I can't spell it but I do have an article from a paper. I need all the help I can get. I need to let go of the past too.

Why am I always Tired?

I am always tired because I have MS.

"duh."

I know why but it doesn't help me deal with the hot and humid weather I have had to deal with lately. I have wanted to get some improvement to my blog but I can't find the energy. I have to type one handed as it is.

I want to get a camraphone with gps so I can keep a better record of where I've been and what I have been doing. witch brings up another hurdle... Money.I am so broke I can't pay attention. I know that's an old joke even for me but I can't afford a joke book.

I am planing on making this a more interesting space. I might make it a community blog and let other people add to it. I think it would be better as a site on a web ring.

I was late again but my daughter Jasmine was using the computer (That's my story and I'm sticking to it).

I should mention that I gave Jasmine $80 dollars yesterday. She got it for getting good grades. I think it was 3 A's 2 B 's and a c. I was disappointed about the C because she only got that because of assignment that weren't turned in. I can't get mad because those are better grades than I got In the 8th grade. I will say this. Jasmine is smart like her Daddy. ;-P

Lilly still has issues. The games her mother plays are not helping her. I'll go into more detail latter. I'm tired now.

Watching You Tube

I have been watching videos by lauenvparrot on you tube. It's interesting to me. She has MS like I do and she is posting videos like I want to. I guess you could say I'm jealous.

I have been keeping this blog for awhile now. I think adding video is my next step. I have added video before but it was not what I really wanted to do. My camera is broken so I will have to buy a new one.

Lauren said somthing about stress and it is all true. I need to deal with things as well as I can and then let them go. I haven't always done that and it ends up hurting me in the end.

New blog list

I have just added a new blog list. If you are interested in MS info some of these blogs might be a good place to look. I'm not really a MS expert I just live with it everyday. I try to provide useful links but I know my diary is not strictly about MS.

"Sue me."

This site is really a personal one, but I am inviting you to share in my experiences. If you have any MS blogs you like leave me a message telling me where they are. I will post a link. I really want all interesting blogs but I'm just posting the MS blogs here.

Time to call the doctor.

I have been feeling tired and sluggish for awhile now. It has been hard for me to realize what was happening because I am always tired. Fatigue is a part of my MS. I have a new problem to go with the slight increase in my tiredness. My feet are swollen.

I don't know what causes that but hopefully I can find out. My daughter Jasmine pointed it out to me.

"Daddy your feet feet are swollen...ewww!"

I heard something funny about feet. He said " When you talk to younguns tell them to take pictures of their feet because they will nevr look like that again." (The father from the Wayans Bros.)

It was something like that. I haven't given up hope just yet. The dogs are still not past the point of no return. I'm calling my doctor today. It might be something serious.

Jasmine and Lilly are with thier mom. She has them for a week. I'm angry about that because she is supposed to have a urine test done and she hasn't. She said sunday that she would have it monday so I was a nice guy and said ok. On monday she said she would have it Tuesday. If she doesn't have it today I am going up to her house and getting the kids.

Cindy doesn't really have any parental rights now. She only visits with them because we let her.

I'll go before I start cursing.

" #@@$#@$ @#!@( "

Too late. I don't need this.

I added search

Ihave just added search to my blog. Feel free to make as many searches as you would like. "cha-ching"

I had to do somthing to make this blog better. Hopefully a monitary incentive will give me the desire to make this a half-way decent space.

I think I'll add my own video next. The kids are out of school for the summer
vacation. It means i have coscripts... I mean actors for my movvies.

I am exhousted

I'm not really tired now but I was yesterday. I could not move my legs. I had to lay on the floor for a few minutes before I got up and pulled myself into bed.

I have been like that before but it still worries me. I know exactly what causes it. I can't take the heat. The summer time is the worst time...NOW.

I blame the weather for my receent mistakes. (It's a good thing when you have something to blame.) I forgot about a scheduled meeting for the kids. I told thier mother she could pick them up today. My fault. I will have to make up for that.

I have to get my @$^! together and make the improvements to my blog. What did I say about blame?

That right! I'll make improvements latter. I'm otta here.

kid venture

I need to make a call and get my kids signed up for kid venture. It's an activity for kids with a parent with MS. They din't want to go until their cousin went to somthing similar and rode on the " zip line." Now they want to go too. I hope it isn't to late to register.

I am looking into adding search to the site. I'm trying to increase this blogs visability. it is just a diary now but I'm trying to make it more. I know I say that a lot but it is the truth. I'm adding my own videos when I can.

Is it that obvious?

I was adding a picture to my blog and I showed it to my mom. The first thing she said was " why do you want a restroom picture on your blog? "

I didn't realize it was so easy to tell where I got the picture. I'm going to leave it for now. I will change it as soon as possible. Many of the people with MS are familiar with the sign anyway.

Another change I want to make is to add an animation to the blog. I might try now if I have the time. I still have to get ready for the birthday/memorial day cookout we are having. If you were wondering my birthday is Wednesday.

I will be 34. (gee golly... thanks. Your interest in my birthday is appreciated.)

I will be adding to this site soon. I was thinking some animation and maybe some poll questions. I am going to increase (create) readership here.

Life changes

I am going to make big changes. I have decided that I no longer smoke marijuana. I am going to try and get meaningful employment. I am going to try and regain some of my lost movement. I am going to try and take more of an active role in MY kids upbringing. I just don't like my current situation.

The weed thing isn't going to be fun. Marijuana is illegal so that's one reason to quit. I have heard it can help with MS, but I have also heard it can hurt. I don't have to worry about it now one way or the other.

I need more money. Work would be a blessing. It would also give me something to do. Staying home all the time is boring.

I was an athlete at one time. Working out " ain't nothin but a thing." I'm going for the natural high that working out can give you.

The last thing I was going to write about were my kids. For now I consider both of them mine. There is no doubt about Jasmine. Do I really need to say more?

I'm on time!

I am updating my blog on the day I said I would for once (Mondays and Thursdays). I blame MS for my laziness. I am only joking but the depressing thing is it's probably true.

I want to make improvements to this blog. I want a graphical header and posting my own videos would be nice. My pictures are all old. My links need to be edited. I should take a poll.... Why does mylife suck? (just kidding)The poll idea would be a good one if anyone actualy read my blog. It is just for me really.


I need to get a new camera. the old one broke. I think I might be able to find a nice one at a pawn shop. I'll buy it as soon as I find a million dollar lotto ticket on the sidewalk.


I'm stressing my self out about my daughters cheerleading tryouts. I want to support her but I can't afford it. I need to come up with $90... and a ride to the DR's office.

I think I'm over my ex today. yesterday I wasn't sure. When I think about it I am when I don't I'm not. It must be a hormonal thing. I'll write more... latter.

I loose...again

I have just been playing chess. I was pretty good but I can't seem to win. I fall for tricks I shouldn't. it makes me mad. I am having a bad day.

I did have some good news. I have been given a list of resourses that might help with my dis ability.

Chow.

I do what I can

I try to do what I can but it's not always enough. I haven't kept this blog up to date like I have wanted to. I still need to add a graphical header and edit my links list. I don't really go to a lot of those sites anymore.

cardomain.com for example. I wanted to fix up my car and post pictures of it there. I had a 96 Nissan 240sx. It wasn't just going to look fast. The car that came stock straight from the dealer couldn't have touched me.

I don't have a car or a license now. It is just as well. I like to go fast. I have matured a lot since my high school days but I might have been tempted.

O.k. time for me to say something crazy!

I still care about my ex.

There has been too much stuff that has happened between us and she has a boyfreind.(who I can't stand), but I did feel for her when she came by yesterday. She was picking up her daughter Lilly for a visit. My mother found some of Lilly's underpants hidden in the bushes in front of my house. She almost didn't get to visit with her Mom. Cindy was trying not to but she almost started to cry. It was paifull to see.

Lilly needs to understand. Soiling her clothes is one thing. Lying about it is another. Lying is unacceptible at my mothers house. Lilly did get to go with her mom but she is still in trouble when she gets back.

I'm tired now so I have to go. see you next time.

More Information

I need more information. There is a group that lends money to people with MS so they can buy scooters and make their houses handicapped accessible. I'm going to look into it. I'll keep this web site posted with my progress.

I don't read much theese days but I am going to go see if I can catch up on some of the magazine article I have wanted to read. I don't have good eye sight so I don't read like I used to. My mother suggested that I get some books on tape. I guess I'll try it.

I haven't been keeping up with my journal. I need to do a beter job of updating it. Mondays and thursdays are the days.

I need drugs!

I'm not talking about illegal drugs, I'm talking about medication. If you are expecting me to advocate medical marijuana I'm not going to do it.

I do use the weed from time to time. I got some information that it can cause problems. I also hear it can help. I'll just smoke a lot less than I used to. I never really smoked because of MS.

My MS symptoms have been bad for a week. I'm tired right now. I'll solder on. I have fans who need me. ;-P

I'm going to add a graphical header to this blog. I already changed the colors. I am not sure I like it. maybe it will grow on me. I am also looking at adding my calender to my blog.

There are some interesting articles in MOMENTUM magazine. I think I'm going to read them now.

BYE

still learning

Im still learning how to trade using on the stock market. So far I'm up 1.6 percent since April 29. I would be up more but exon isn't where I thought it should be. I'mnot getting the return I want. I am stcking with it though. I know it's coming down eventualy. I didn't think it would be this soon. I think it can go higher. I'm going to invest more.

I went to the DR today. I have to get a prescription for a scooter and aqua physical therapy in the pool. I haven't given up walking just yet.

Can't anything be easy?

My investment stratigy

Diversify... That's all I Know at this point.

I'm going to invest money evenly between property, stocks, and the bank. If I take a loss in one area then I will hopefully have something to fall back on. If I make a good profit in one area I will take the profits and redistribute them so my investments are evenly diversified again.

That's the plan. I have started off buying imaginary stocks with updown.com . I want to make sure I know what I am doing before I start risking real money so far I have made about a 1% imaginary profit with my imaginary money. Not bad for 2 months but I feel I can do better once I learn the, "game."

Being broke all the time sucks. I want to leave something for the kids. I haven't been able to work because of Multiple Sclerosis and this is my only plan of making money so far.

I need to make better investments

I am a updown investor which means I am pretending to play the stock market. Today was a good day for the stock market but I am not really making (imaginary) money I am ahead but not as much as I want to be. My plan is to learn how to play the stock market with updown.com then to invest what little money I have and hopefully make money.

Apparently I'm not ready. I have barely made a profit. I am just treading water. I need to get some investment books. I have read about Warren Buffit that is the type of company I'm trying to keep.


I have just been invited to the movies. I have t8o update later.

I am participating!

What am I participating in?

Everything!

I have decided to try to get involved in every MS related activity that I am offered. Everything I can anyway.

There is a woman writing a book about people with MS. I forget her name. She is looking for submitted material for her book from people with MS. This could be my only chance to get published. writing a book is hard.

I called Julie yesterday. I talked for an hour about nothing. I think she might have been depressed. She has MS too and she is experiencing worsening of her MS symptoms.

If I can get the money together I think I'm going to visit her. She probably gives really good hugs. (from what I understand she's stacked) lol

I used to chat with her all the time before my old computer blew up. I need to get the software we were using downloaded to this computer. I need to get the system administrators permission. This isn't my computer.

I have a web cam and a mic and so does she. That would be cool.

Late again

Nothing much has changed with me. I'm late updating as usual. I couldn't get enough energy together to write yesterday. I feel I am adequately ashamed of myself, so the hate mail is unnecessary. I understand that I have a legion of adoring fans who depend on me.

Google is starting something new called gblogs. It looks interesting. I have to look into it. I'm not sure how it's supposed to work but I don't think It is time sensitive. You don't have to post in chronological order. I doubt it would afect this blog much but it might give me the incentive to start other blogs I have wanted to start for awhile.

I think I am going to print out my past posts so I can start again. I don't really know how much space I have so I'm not sure.

I also saw something about the blogger help videos on utube. That's something I need to look into.

I'm out.( I have finished the blog entry and I am retiring for the day. )lol