OUCH!

I have Finlay started to use my updown.com account. I have lost about $300 so far. I have made some impulse stock picks. In the future I need to do a better job of researching the companies before I buy. I believe in the companies so I'm going to ride the down turn out. I'm not making anymore moves until after I do some research. I think I will be more of a long term invest er. I'm not making any more sudden moves unless I can see a clear trend. It's a good thing it's only for pretend.

The only thing happening lately involves my daughters. They spent a week at their mother's house. When it was time for them to come home their mother just didn't bring them back. She thinks she can do whatever she wants with them. That is not what the judge said. One day when she does get it she will be in for a rude awaking.She is lucky I let her see them at all.

My MS seems a little worse. My tremors ,balance and my energy level. I am typing one handed again. I have decided that I will stop worrying about what I can't control. I will ,for example trust in the court system handle any problems I have with the children's mother.

Depresion sucks

I must be depressed right now. I know I shouldn't let things get me down. I am trying not to let what other people do affect me. I just have to depend on myself. I was the life of a party but it can be hard partying by yourself. It's not as bad as it seems.

I saw HORTON HEARS A WHO saterday . I give it 4 out of 5 stars. I liked it but I was a Dr. Suess fan when I was a kid. I'm the cat in a hat.

I don't have much to say today. I might just post a video or somthing. Hopfully I will think of somthing by Thursday.



It took me a long time to learn this song. I couldn't play it now if I tried.

I'm a sucker

I hope this was not a mistake. I bought a new web site so I can sell some of my intellectual capital.( That's all I got )If I can get everything together I'm starting my own record Label.

I really haven't gotten past the idea stage. I still need to work on my business plan. I have a lot of work to do before I can start accepting music from people trying to get herd. I can hopefully create a small independent label that will become a vehicle for artists trying to reach the majors.

I might be able to get my own music herd.

My daughter has dreams of being a rock star and a clothing designer. I have my doubts. It will take dedication and hard work. Even then there is a lot of work involved. I will help her WORK to achieve her goals. I have dreams too

When every thing is set up I will post a link here.

Depresion

I guess Im an excellent example of the link of MS and depression. I make plans and then don't follow through with them because things don't happen the way I want. I'm a dreamer and not a doer.The conference I went to on Saturday is a good example.

I learned a lot and I did buy a book from one of the guest speakers. I did not talk with any of the females that were in attendance. When I did speak it was not about dating. It just wasn't the time or the place.

The book I got was HEALTHCARE for LESS by Michelle Katz. I haven't started reading it yet,but I think it has a lot of good information. It goes into greater detail about what she she spoke about at the conference.

I forgot the other speakers name, but he was speaking about investing. I was very interested. I need to figure out how I can aply the information to my situation. I should have taken notes. At least I could have brought my voice recorder. I have a few investment sites in my links list. I haven't used them yet. (see paragraph one) I have plans.

When I do invest I will probably take a lot of risk. You want to buy low and sell high right? It's pretty low now. I need to get started. I have a lot to learn. I want to offset the amount of risk by learning as much as I can about a company befoe I Invest.

How much?

I have just been thinking. I wonder how much it would cost to hire a secratary to type my diary. I don't keep it updated as much as I should. I think the accepted norm is two updates a week. I am only trying for once a week and I haven't really been succeding. There is nothing to write about. My life is boring.

I am going to a MS meeting for young adults with MS. I should be able to learn better coping skills and about the current state of MS research, but all I can think about is I hope I meet someone who wants to date.

I know its bad. I haven't had a date in...thats pivate! You know its bad when I can't mention it here.

I think I'm going to try two updates this week. I will also be adding a link to my profile on a dating site.

I need a date!

I can't stay away...

As long as I have an Internet connection I'm going to use it. I'm' still angry about the problems I've been having with this computer.

I have not really talked much about my MS in awhile. I guess I have been avoiding it. It is not something I like to think about. I need to write more about my experiences. This is my multiple sclerosis web page after all.

I my symptoms have stayed about the same. They might have even gotten a little worse. The improvement I received from my deep brain stimulator has not been as much as I was hoping for. I don't know if it was worth the the stress of surgery. I have gotten some improvement but I am starting to wonder if the improvement was worth it. I still want a cure so I doubt I'll be Happy with anything less.

I have been a little depressing so here is something funny.

It's a wedding!

I'm taking a break

I will be taking a short break away from this computer. I am fed up. This computer is making me crazy. I don't plan on adding to this site for awhile. I need to get my own computer hooked up to the Internet. I am not the computer administrator for the only computer with Internet access that I have access to.

I can not even log on to my email accounts. Nothing ever works around here. I use the computer more than anyone. I am not satisfied with just being able to get on line. Until I get my own computer hooked up I have to take a break for my own sanity.

New links

I have added some new sites to my links list. I need to edit my link list but I'll do it latter. I want to start more blogs so that my different interests will be better represented.

For instance sports. I just made a post about a boxing match and I want to use some of the material that has been posted on the web as part of my web page. There are a lot of fans out there who know what they are talking about.

I called it!

I was having a bad run but it seems like the stars are lining up for me again. Pavlik won and my prediction was correct.

I am depending on information I got from the internet. I still need to see the fight. I have been lied to before. this fight brings up questions like who is next, Hopkins or Winkyy Wright? I'm just happy I called it.

Another subject I should bring up is Marijuana and it's links to impaired cognitive function for people with MS.

"damn!"

It looks like I will not be smoking for a while. I'm not going to even lie and say never again. I am going to have to cut it back. maybe just on my birthday or holidays. Groundhogs day... just kidding. I have to watch it. I will be celebrating everyones birthday if I don't draw the line somewhere.

I guess it is kind of obvious about marijuana. In school I alaways smoked after the test not before it.

There is a article about marijuana on listed on my blog. I guess the hazzards might outway the benifits.

Parrr-Tay!

Hopefuly I'll have a good time tonight. I'm going out tonight. I'm not even going to say where. I can only say I'm a dog. " Woof, Woof. "They don't call me crazy for nothing.

I have not been keeping a very good record of my MS experiances. Most of the time I just wrie about What ever is on my mind. I guess what today is no exception. Just kidding... but not really.

My MS has not gotten worse but it has not really gotten better. My Deep Brain Stimulater works but not as much as I would like. I missed my last Dr's appointment becouse of the weather. I am over due for my tysabri infusoin.

I also have two apointments I should tallk about. An apointment with ITT tech. and a seminar about a business oppertunity. Ill have to talk about them latter.

Remember this?

I was a big Cosby show fan when I saw it I thought I would embed it



This is classic!

Bad karma?

What did I do? I picked the looser again. I seem to be stuck in a viscious circle. I am always picking looseers to win. It's a good thing I was too chicken to bet. I need that 50 bucks ( my maximum bet ). The Patriots are not my team but I was like alot of football fans. I beleived the odds makers. I could see the writing on the wall though. the giants were all business. Thats the way you have to be.

I am looking for Pavlik to win the Pavlik to win the rematch boxing match between Taylor and Pavlik.

O have been invited to a seminar about business oppoyunities on the internet. I'll be there I am skeptical but I need some doe. What can I say I beleive in capitalism.

Super Bowl Sunday

I doubt I will be doing much. but I will be watching the game. In better times I would make a big deal of it. It is a holiday after all. ;-p Now all I want is to sit at home and watch the game....GO Patriots! Do it for history. My team barely made the playoffs.( Washington Redskins )That's why I try not to gamble on sports.

My back has been hurting, I'm not sure why. The pain doesn't want to go away. I will be over a month overdue for my TYSABRI infusion. I missed my appointment becouse it snowed. I knew I should have paid the lady to give me a ride rather than depend on the drivers from logistacre. I think I may be able to get her rembursed for my ride.

I have to decided that I need to get in shape. All I need to do now is get motivated. My back problem is not helping. I will have to make myself do it. Wish me luck.

Wow!

I have seen this chair before but I still want one. I just saw the video on you tube.

Not much is going on here right now. My neighbor had a heart attack. It has me contemplating the meaning of life. Why does stuff like this happen. My MS makes me think about my mortality all the time. Is there a reason?

A plan

I need a plan. I have not accomplished much during my 33 years. I was named as the most likely person to succeed when I was younger. What happened? I have had some bad luck (The MS thing definitely goes in that category),but I have also made some bad mistakes. I will have to think about that. I need to come up with a plan.

I missed my DR'S appointment yesterday. My ride never showed up because it snowed. My cellphone battery is dead and the phone line at my mothers is not working. I won't be able to make any calls until I get to a working phone. I wonder if the DR'S office has an E-mail address.

I'm not even going in to it. I need a date. If something doesn't change I will be forced to take drastic measures. I have been to on line dating services but being disabled makes even dating that way hard.

A busy Week

I had court on Friday. My Ex was trying to get custody back of the kids. She never had a chance. I wanted her to be quiet when she was on the stand testifying. The lawyer was tarring her to pieces. She kept talking about what she was going to do and not about what she has done to show that she is fit to get the children back. The judge didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear it either.

I told the guardian ad-lidem about how my ex keeps talking like there was a possibility we might get back together. She is always tying to manipulate me. I did love her once.

It has taken a long time but I no longer care when she breaks up with her fiance (boyfriend). It seems like it is every other week. I don't care if she hates me or not. I just don't care.

I celebrated Christmas New years day, and Lilly's birthday(1/1/00). Everything seems to be working out O.K.

I have noticed my MS but I'm not sure if its new or if it's because I have been busier than usual. I am aways tired. I don't workout even though I need to. I just can't get motivated. It really takes a lot out of me.

The other thing bothering me is I need a date. I just want conversation and a movie.

I know things have changed when that's what I want from a woman. Sex would be nice but its not the most important thing.

Just watching videos...

I have been watching videos on you tube and I thought I would post a few. I'm in a hip hop mood, so if that's not your thing beware. I like all kinds of music and since I have MS now Rap might be the way for me to go. I can still sequence a decent beat using the computer. Rapping is out of the question though.

I Could't find the video but I used to play this song to death.

I found the problem.

The problem I have been having with my mothers computer is I am not the system administrator. I can't listen to Internet radio, use yahoo messenger, or use anything else that requires the administrators permission. I will most likely get the permission but it does bring up my other problem. I live with my mom.

I am disabled and that's the main reason I still live at home. I am dependant on rides. It has had negative affect on my dating situation. I have joint custody of two girls. It was awarded to me but my mother stood up in court and asked for joint custody. The judge asked if I wanted that but I felt like I had no choice but to agree to it. I have to live under my mothers roof. That's a problem and I'm going to try and fix it. I do not need kids thinking that what I say doesn't matter. If things were run my way I wouldn't have some of the problems I have now.

I hate computers!

I feel like I have 1000 pounds of TNT dippped in an olympic sized swiming pool of nitroglycerin and I want a cigaret. If I don't get this computer to work I might go NUCLEAR.

I cant get into the Yahoo games site to play chess.This always seems to happen when I get a new computer.


I just wanted to play a game or two. I am loosing a lot right now anyway. I always end up asking myself... Is it my MS? Could be. It could also be that I'm not watching what my opponent is doing becouse I'm concentrating on what I want to do becouse I'm so hungry for wins.

I just thoght I would make a post because I can still do that.

I'm using Vista the new microsoft operating system now. I have to fix my settings and look around to see all of the new features. I will wait to give my opinion about it.

It's Christmas!

Ba-humbug!

Just kidding. Merry Christmas. I didn't get everybody something but hopefully they will be able to forgive me. It's not about the gifts anyway, right? I just wanted to wish anyone who happened to stop by... MERRY CHRISTMAS!