A message to my ex

I have sent an apology to my ex-girlfriend today. She was my first love and when it ended I acted like a complete fool. It was the beginning of a pattern I was to repeat latter in life.

I did try to apologize a long time ago while we were still in school, but I couldn't be around her or speak to her or I would do something to make my apology meaningless. The best I could do was stay away. Hopefully time has made this apology sincere

Sometimes I think I acted the way I did because of depression I was experiencing due to the onset of my MS. I know depression can be a part of MS. Either way I am still responsible. Mass murderers don't get an out and neither do I.

I probably shouldn't compare myself to killers. I do joke and call myself crazilynsane but "I just a'int that crazy."

I found my exes name when I signed up for a facebook account. I'm going to try out their social network. I might meet other MS'ers.

I still need to add pictures.

In shock

I called it wrong. The boxing match between Ricky Hatton and Manny Paquieo( I can't spell... cut me some slack ) didn't make it past the 2nd round. You could see it coming. Ricky wants to dish out all of the punishment. Unfortunatly for him there are two people in a boxing match. You have to duck sometimes.

Game seven of the NBA finals is on so I have to go. I want the Lakers to win. If they loose I am contplating suicide (not really). I didn't think it would be this hard.

I have to go. I will write more latter. I might even write about my MS. I will go into greater detail. I am trying to be quik now.

Happy day!

My daughter Jasmine is a varsity cheerleader for the Nelson County Govenors. She found out today. She is acting nonchalant about it but I can tell she is really happy.

I posted video but it didn't come out too good. It doesn't matter. It lets the kids use thier imaginations. If you have to dream then dream big. That is my motto. Now all we need to do now is work on following through.

I know I didn't sound that great. You could hear me getting anoyed. They named a butterfly stupid! They didn't get it from me. The most I can say is they got my grumpy pessamistic atitude. At least they know I love them.

I have been forgeting words a lot. I can think of every word but the word I want.

I am about to go but before I do I just have to say I thoaght the song my daughter Jasmine wrote and sang in the video was good. I think it is about me.

Stupid Computer

I have been trying to edit the Video that the kids and I took. It hasn't been going well. Windows Movie Maker is not compatible with the format of the Movies I shot. I think it was but I stored them in the quick time format. I had to. I should be able to post something but it will not be edited.

What do I look like, the evil hacker computer genius? I had a DR's appointment yesterday. My DR wants an mri. The metal I have in my head might cause problems. My DR needs to talk with my surgon.



I boaght my daughter Jasmine a laptop. Now Lilly wants one. Maybe in a couple years.

New Video

I have new video of The kids and I raising and releasing butterflies. I am going to post it but I still need to edit the video. It will have to wait. Lilly is in the computer room playing her music (if you can call it that). I'll have video soon.

I have a Dr's appointment Monday. I'll be seeing my new neurologist. I have to be sure to bring up the pain I have in my foot.

I have been hanging out with an old friend. All my old friends are hoodlums and up to no good. What does that say about me?