I can't give it up

I have been toying with the idea of stopping my blog. I never have the energy or the motivation to work on it. I have a lot I want to say but I never get it all put down on my blog.

My blog has become a random mix of my complaints, my opinions, and descriptions of things that happen in my life at any particular time.

What's wrong with that you may ask.

Nothing. Except I do feel a need to be more productive and do something. I want to do more than just record my descent into irrelevance. It would be nice to be thought of by family and friends as more than just completely useless.

I haven't accomplished much in my life. A lot of it was my fault. A lot wasn't.

I don't think I'll ever completely stop with my blog. I am going to print out what I have already written and start over. I will have to think of ways I can make this space more relevant.

I don't like the idea of giving up.

Why is everything always so hard?

I'm listening to ambient music again... (I like that Moby guy lol)

I think I have to try to get into music again. I have ideas. I will have to get back into computer sequenced music. I think I can think of decent riffs I can stitch together with samples to make something interesting. I want to sample my self. I grew up in the Washington D.C. area so I think music I made would have a sequenced GOGO type feel.

I need to do something.

I was watching video of wheelkamaze ( I forgot his name! ) That guy was rollin'. He put that wheelchair in the wind. I use a wheelchair too and take my word for it he was going fast.

I had my Tysabri Infusion yesterday. I feel good. I might actually get something accomplished this week.

I need to get AdSense figured out. I want to look at making a better game and i need to look at the crazy counter. It is depressing. This is only my home page with my links to the Internet but I like to think that I provide some kind of utility.

No more adsence

I figured out how to get rid of my adsence ads yesterday. I was starting to get annoyed. I wasnt geting paid. I asked for help but all I got was a no reply message that I wasn't geting enouph hits to get paid.

Thats not what my adsence acount says.

I either don't know how to read or they have made a mistake and owe me a 100$. The ads I had were interfering with my posts. It doesn't matter becouse that was never really why I started this blog. I might try again latter.

I am listening to ambient music so forgive me if I get philsophical. ;-D

I'm thinking about getting a external hard dive for my computer. I might actualy be able to do a lot of the stuff I want to.

I saw a seagate 1.5 TB hard drive for 129$ Let me repeat that 1.5 TB for 129$ I only have 40 GB now.

I have been feeling better. I must have been having an exasperation of symptoms. I'll be glad when or if they find a cure.