I need to chill out with that stuff

I admit it I like to chat. My bigest problem is I will back up everything I say and I will say a lot. I have been known to do some wild stuff for a girl. My problem has always been figuring out if they meanit or not. I can't helpp it I'll be crazy til the end.

It's thanks giving

I'm still here. Still tring to figure out my next move. I am thinking about a girl. She " better recognize. " I'm not all talk. She doesn't know who shes dealing with (lol). I'm going to the U.K.

Hopefully she does know.

I need to make a few calls. I'll call my friend Shawn first. I wonder how his nephew is doing. I'm going to to punch him in the chest and tell him I said Happy Thaksgiving. I'm going to have to tell shawn not to hurt him. He's a big boy. I'm sure I'll see that one again.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Tslked to Emz today

I was talking crazy as usual. They don't call me crazilynsane for nothing.

I let her know I liked her.

I was depessed. Depesion is often a part of MS. I was reminded of MS when I lost my last chess game. I was really good at one time. I can't buy a game now.

Is it MS?

I need a job!

I usually just surf the net and chat. I enjoy those things but I need more than that I need somthing meaningful to do with my time. A sense of achievement, accomplishment or of self worth. Self-actualization.

I some times laugh when I hear about someone with a simple idea that makes millions. All I need is an epiphany. It shouldn't be that hard... All I have to do is think about it. Then I got it made. If I wait long enough something good is bound to happen.

I'm waiting for my eureaka moment. ( there is a bad joke in there somewhere )

I have been living on line

I am on the computer a lot maybe too much. The posts I make here only acount for a small part of my time. I chat and surf the web a lot. My girlfriend L\lives more than a thousand miles away on a diffrent continent. I plan on going to see her in Febuary. We have plans.

I hope I'm not just being crazy by thinking it could work. My judgement might be clouded. I am going even though I know that it is. Wish me luck.

I am taking precautions. Someone will know where I am at all times. My mother was talking about going with me. I'm not going to let her for a lot of reasons. I want my privacy for one and the girl I'm going to see s kind of young. She is legal as far as I know but I joked with her that she needs to bring I.D. when she comes to meet me.

Yes she is that young. I hope she realizes I ain't kiddin'.

I have been tired a lot lately. I'm going to talk about it when I see my neurologist on the 21.

One is a magic number

" Theres just meeee ... one is a magic number... There's just meee...."

Sorry I was having a Jill Scot moment.

I should to write down my opinions and views. I'll call it the players manifesto. ( it's my manifesto I can callit what I want! lol)

I'll have to start a new blog. I have been getting to political around here. Voicing my political AND other opinions is not what this blog is supposed to be about.

Just because I talk to much i can give you an Idea of how I would start it...

1) Don't lie - it complicates things. Not having to lie again to cover up pevious lies is easier besides I'm not a good liar.
2) I love women. - I like people and loving women has more to do with biology than anything else.

Thats as far as I have gotten. I also believe in love. There could be one woman who could be for me. The right one could change my mentality.

I have been doing well although I have noticed balance peoblems. I have noticed something is off. I have an opiontment with my neurologist I'll have to bring it up. I can't give up. I don't believe in it. That's not what I have learned from my journey so far.

Today Is The Day

I'm about to do some much needed maintenance on my computer. I am cleaning out the registry and deleting what I don't need. I am backing every thing up twice. One copy I will keep myself and once to online storage that I will have to pay for. ( 5$ a month ) I also feel I have to defend myself for some of my views.

I stand by everything I have said. If you want to argue we can do that. Bring facts to back up your arguments. What you herd or just a feeling does nothing to convince me.

I beleive America is one republic made up of individuel states. I think there is a place for national government. If a locality feels it doesnt want to abide by national law it doesnt have to but then it has chosen not to be a part of the nation. The civil war is where I make the exception ,but not really. During the Civil War half of the Southern population did not get to vote.

There is a lot of blame to go around. I have friends online they all think im a recent imagrant. My family has probably been here longer than the Unighted States.

I hope I have cleared up how I feel for friends. The ones who give me a hard time lol.

Obama is President

Barack Obama is President elect. He takes office in January. I din't vote for him because im a felon and because I don't agree with a lot of his politics. He is presedent elect and he has the wheel. I will try to give him his chance.

A lot of people give me grief because I didn't think he was the right person for the job. The resons have to do with history.

Abraham Lincoln was a Republican. The first black senator was Hiram Revels. He served during reconstruction in 1870 and 1871. As soon as reformation was over and the south regained thier vore the carpetbaggers were thrown out. Carpetbagers was the name for southern politicians who were installed by the North.

The original face of the Democratic party was that of the southern Land owner. Slaves were his business. The Civil War was fought over states rights. Princpal and foremost among these rights was the right to own slaves.

If you don't believe me look up the Dred Scot case or the 3/5 comprimise.

Itis true that many of the racist element of the Unighted States has switched parties since the civil rights movement. But it is why I listen when someone who is republican speaks. Not all republicans are racist and not all dmocrats beleive in equaality.

Lol well hopfully you read my whole tirade...This is supposed to be about my MS. I am doing well. I am adopting a wait and see attude about Obama. Maybe it will help with the fight against MS.

A redskins loss means...

The sports anouncers predicted that when the redskins win win the incumbent party wins. When the Redskins loose the incumbent party looses. we just have to wait to see if the prediction still has merit.

The Redskins lost.

I am conservitive by nature but I have respect for the office. I will support the president elect no matter how it turns out.

Either way I win. having an Afro-american in office will do a lot to to help with race relations in the USA but if he is not a good president the oppisite is true. Fairly or unfairly there will be pressure on Barrak Obamama if he wins.

I must be crazy...

I am trying to fly to England. Someone I have been chatting with lives there. She is disabled too. I have no idea how we would manage, but I AM going.

I haven't even had a girlfriend in 6 years. Women have always been my greatest downfall.

Will I look back on this trip and add it to my already long list of mistakes? I don't think I have a choice. I will find out.

All I can do is take precautions.