Wow!

I have seen this chair before but I still want one. I just saw the video on you tube.

Not much is going on here right now. My neighbor had a heart attack. It has me contemplating the meaning of life. Why does stuff like this happen. My MS makes me think about my mortality all the time. Is there a reason?

A plan

I need a plan. I have not accomplished much during my 33 years. I was named as the most likely person to succeed when I was younger. What happened? I have had some bad luck (The MS thing definitely goes in that category),but I have also made some bad mistakes. I will have to think about that. I need to come up with a plan.

I missed my DR'S appointment yesterday. My ride never showed up because it snowed. My cellphone battery is dead and the phone line at my mothers is not working. I won't be able to make any calls until I get to a working phone. I wonder if the DR'S office has an E-mail address.

I'm not even going in to it. I need a date. If something doesn't change I will be forced to take drastic measures. I have been to on line dating services but being disabled makes even dating that way hard.

A busy Week

I had court on Friday. My Ex was trying to get custody back of the kids. She never had a chance. I wanted her to be quiet when she was on the stand testifying. The lawyer was tarring her to pieces. She kept talking about what she was going to do and not about what she has done to show that she is fit to get the children back. The judge didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear it either.

I told the guardian ad-lidem about how my ex keeps talking like there was a possibility we might get back together. She is always tying to manipulate me. I did love her once.

It has taken a long time but I no longer care when she breaks up with her fiance (boyfriend). It seems like it is every other week. I don't care if she hates me or not. I just don't care.

I celebrated Christmas New years day, and Lilly's birthday(1/1/00). Everything seems to be working out O.K.

I have noticed my MS but I'm not sure if its new or if it's because I have been busier than usual. I am aways tired. I don't workout even though I need to. I just can't get motivated. It really takes a lot out of me.

The other thing bothering me is I need a date. I just want conversation and a movie.

I know things have changed when that's what I want from a woman. Sex would be nice but its not the most important thing.

Just watching videos...

I have been watching videos on you tube and I thought I would post a few. I'm in a hip hop mood, so if that's not your thing beware. I like all kinds of music and since I have MS now Rap might be the way for me to go. I can still sequence a decent beat using the computer. Rapping is out of the question though.

I Could't find the video but I used to play this song to death.