Ticked off + P.O.'ed as usual.

I just came inside from trying to get the leaves up with the lawn tractor. The grass catcher was not working. I was mechanically inclined but I avoid any type of physical work now. Getting off the tractor and fixing the problem is not an option.

I have also been trying to get my STEP daughter Lilly how to Tye her shoe laces. She just doesn't seem to get it. I'm not sure if she is slow or if is because she will not pay attention. I'm not sure if I should call her my daughter or not. She is not blood she is my daughter's sister. I do have custody of her. Her mother may never get them back. I wish she would stop lying about it. ...I have to change the subject.

This blog will be better if it kills me (it might). I am trying to add a picture slide show and a link to Items I might sell on eBay. I'm still working on it.

Bills bills,bills

A bill for $3,000 dollars came to me in the mail yesterday. I had to a double take when I saw it. I can remember it like it was yesterday...(it was)

3,000 dollars! Do they mean pesos? What is the exchange rate?

I still have a headache.

I have been doing a little research today. I'm going to add a slide show to my blog. I might even try to put some video on it. After I changed to blogger beta It is easier to make changes, but I still have problems.

I'm not sure how much space on the blog. I think video would eat up a lot of space. I don't know how to make my google calander accesable on my blog.

I would also like too add a family history blog and a chess blog.

Chess is one of my hobies. I am ok but I'm not as good as I once was. I think it might be because of the whole M.S. thing. I was just good I was never the best. I guess it's relative. Among real chess players I was never the best.

The problblem with being James

The problem with being James is I always have something to complain about. I think I bring a lot of my problems on myself, or I make them worse. Life has not been fair to me in any case. I mean I didn't plan for the MS thing at all.

You could make the argument that I should have been better prepared with insurance and financialy. I did not accomplish much in my life so far. My family cituation should have been better I know.

I have two kids now and I need to think for them as well as myself. I know all of this but I don't know how. The answers just elude me.I can not really take care of myself.

Jasmine my oldest and biological daughter seems to be adjusting well. She is 12 years old and very opinionated. She got four A's and three B's on her last report card. I am taking all the credit for that one. Thank You. I made a blog for her at http://jasmines-links.blogspot.com/ .
I suppose Lilly will want one too now.

Lillianna (Lilly) has been having problems. She turns seven on Jan. 1. She has already failed kindergader and is not potty trained. I don't know if somthing may have happened to her or If she is just a product of the neglect that happened at her mothers house. She may have a biologic problem.

Lilly is not my daughter biologicly. I think she has started to call me DADDY. I am O.k. with that but I'm not sure I heard her correctly. I asked her once but she didn't repeat it. Jasmine may not like it. she always refers to me as her daddy.

Two kids!

After the court hearing yesterday I gained custody of my exgirfriends two kids. Only one of the children is mine. I am not sure wether to be happy or not. Two kids is more than I can really handle by myself with my disability. I am lucky to have my mothers help.

I appeciate my mothers help,but now she has most of the say about how they are raised. I gave her joint custody of both of the children. It wouldn't care except she has ideas concernig them that I don't always agree with. I didn't have a good enough position to object when she suggested that she be granted joint custody.

She was in the courtroom because she gave me a ride there. I am living in her house and am dependant on her. I was lucky she didn't ask for more.