Why does everything have to be hard?

I'm not going to complain about my hopeless existance, I swear. I was just wondering that's all.

I am in the process of burnig cd's and having my songs converted to a format compatable with my ipod. It is aggrivating and that is putting it mildly. Not only is it a waste of blank cd's, it is also time consuming. There has to be an easier way. I should have known it was too good to be true. I thought I was going to have istant access to all of the songs on my PC on my ipod. It advertiseed as bieng compatible. It is not completely compatable.

It would have been nice to know.

I am going to Texas for the family reunion on my mothers side. I live in Virginia so it will be a long trip. We are going to drive. It would be nice to take my songs with me.

Other than that, I dont have much to say ( HOORAY! )

My MS symtoms are about the same. I was thinking it would be nice to have a secratery. I wouldnt have to worry about my spelling, or the gramatical mistakes I know I make. I'll just put my daughter to work. I'll even pay her.

Why am I always angry?

I can't have anything! My team lost the NBA championship yesterday. It's not my team really, but I did pick them to win. That is almost just like it. I like to at least appear to know what I'm talking about. All I wanted to do was watch a good game and drink a few beers with my brother, but fair is fair. I do not cosider the game I watched last night a fair game. I guess It is just another grievance I have with life in general.

I swear I can't have anything (Did I al ready say that?). The whole MS thing is bad enough(Prepare yourself...im going to start complaining). I have double vision and my jump around like...well im not sure how to explain it. My balance and coordination are nonexistant. My right hand and left foot are worse then my left hand and right foot. Wouldn't you know it Im rigght handed. Iam typing this post with my left hand. I can't really use voice recognition software because of my speach problems. "AURGHHHH!".

Im finished with my tyraid so I guess my many fathful readers can relax now. That wasn't that bad was it?

I need to come up with a plan. I need an idea so dareing and brilliant that I could still acomplish all of the goals I set for myself before I was diagnosed with MS. My daughter will be financially takeken care of, I will make great and thought provoking music, and I might actually get a date, or dare i say it ... a girlfriend.

At least I can still dream...